how a year can change everything.

 {via: flickr.}

holy moly. what a whirlwind of a year it has already been-- a beautiful whirlwind; definitely. 

i am overwhelmed with projects & homework galore, working daily, as well.  i can hardly believe it's my fourth year of university. woah. isn't it silly that after switching majors approximately 5 times, i am still unsure of what to do with my life?

frightening? yes. secretly exciting? absolutely.

i leave for germany may 17th. i know the time between then & now is going to fly.  that's how it works, after all. but i am thrilled!  i am au pairing for a wonderful family that lives outside of berlin.  i am going to teach their little babes english. dream.come.true.  i am also applying to attend courses while i am there at the university. i've had a cutout that says "in Deutschland studieren" that i cut out of a study abroad brochure & pinned to my bulletin board a few years ago.

if you would have asked me a year ago if i still was going to study in germany i would have most likely said no. 

but that's the beautiful part about life & growing up & learning more about yourself everyday.

it's amazing how much your dreams shift & change in the matter of a mere year. but it's lovely how my path has directed me back to pursuing my longtime dreams.   

even if you try & tell your heart to hush, it will prevail in the end. every time. i'm sure of it.

here i am, preparing to live in germany in less than two months & i am more content than i have been in far too long.

& holy moly, it's a wonderful feeling.

xo-